Rationalizing for a Resolution

Archive 5.21.2006


Rationalizing for a Resolution

For the past couple of weeks I have been searching for an attempt to rationalize the events that have been set in motion in my life. With a little gift that I have developed over the past couple of decades that some refer to obsessive compulsive disorder, I tend to not let "dead dogs lie." I search for resolutions that may not ever be obtained and attempt to rationalize behavior that has not explanation. This is the cross that I bare. This is the self inflected torment that I deal with on a regular basis.

What brings all of this about today, I have actually taken some time lately to watch some movies. Communication in theses movies is what has spawned this very rant. How two people, whether the feelings are mutual or not, still communicate. The first movie, "Sleeping With the Enemy" and the second "The Natural." Though from two separate genres, these movies both deal with issues between males and females and communication. Attraction, whether shared or not, was communicated and addressed with a resolution. Good or bad . . . the parties received a resolution.

Inner peace is all we could ever hope for as humans and some of us have a need to communicate and confront issues. While others, are unable to communicate and confront. How these people, those who can't communicate and confront, can go on about their day-to-day lives without addressing the issues at hand have me as confused as ever. Therefore, I find myself attempting to rationalize a resolution that more than likely will be inaccurate.

A former friend of mine once said, "A good friend of mine once said something to the effect of, rationalizing is just making excuses for something you know you did wrong. I'm sure that's exactly what you were hoping to hear. . ."

Maybe that statement is true after all. I'll never know. But, if that same friend was to read this . . . I would want to say, "No worries."